Okay, breaking the silence with this. THANKS MEL! :)
And life is coming full circle and to a better place all around. Not without it's learning curve, but none the less, a freedom. And I feel this way, having to return to chemo and all. I think I am learning from mistakes (or life lemons). Rough week, full of every possible mistake, yet I knew there was wisdom in this and waited it out with a few tears and got the "ooooooh, I get it!" message of the week.
Hope anyone reading this is in good health and good spirits,
With Love, always In-Joy