My mood is so much better today. Some good sleep, appetite returned (and food eaten!!) and getting to do some of my own de-stressing techniques has put some energy back into me. It is so easy just to get overwhelmed and it is important to not stay there. I will always keep that in mind and do the things that bring me back to my center. SO important right now.
I also wanted everyone to know, if you have questions about anything, call and ask. Or email and ask. It may take me a day or two to reply, maybe not. Your emails and phonecalls have gone a long way in helping me stay sane. No question is a bad question, and some of you questions help me go "Oh, goooood question, I better ask that one myself!" Don't feel shy about overwhelming me. If I am in overwhelmed mode, I simply wont' check email or pick up the phone at that moment. You can even post them here.
Heck, post "thinking of you" replies here. I check them. And they really really really do help at hard moments. A few emails have made it into my "cancer folder" that I am keeping track of all these appointments in. They really lift me up.
I did finally get some great news today, that it appears my brain is cancer free!!!!!! After all of the "it is here, here, here and here" I can't tell you how happy I was. It gave me renewed energy.
I don't feel like "I" am lost. My body is slowed down, in some pain, and quick to tire, but still, Jenna is in here :)
I am still on a list of diagnostic procedures. Spine tomorrow, heart & liver tests to make sure they can handle the chemo. And I am compiling questions. I do feel like I am getting information in pieces and now it is time to bring it ALL together. All this is like shifting wind and we are a little boat.
Bug and I tried on "chemo hats" and scarves today. She giggled and plans to steal them. She said she thinks I will look really silly without any hair. I agreed. Love that kid. Then she curled up with me and we watched a movie together. She just keeps giving me tons of kisses and nuzzles.