Monday, July 28, 2008
contemplation with trees
So. I am just quiet. I move and speak at the pace of trees. Ever seen Lord of the Rings, those tall trees, that speak very very slowly. I sit, and watch the blur of the world, racing, racing, racing, and giggle, for they know not what they are missing with all the racing. lol. I simply can't. Trying to only makes me grumpy and snappish. So, me and the trees, we move together, very steady and slow and grounded.
The body is working hard this week. Counts are still in "normal"person range, which made the nurse very pleased. But I am not feeling peppy. I know my body is healing, and it's the chemo running me down. It is taking effort to keep that in my mind. I need to support it very well this week. Last week, I overextended. But I fixed what was causing that, and am hoping for less "fluish" feelings this week and higher energy.
If there were floating trees, and hair on that woman, it would express how I am feeling right now very well. It still does, which is why it is up.
Slightly disconnected, spacey, multi-dimensional.
Going to go be very, very slow now.